I wish I could do more drawing here in Peru. I really haven't had much energy for it, though I have been vaguely inspired once or twice. I have probably three sketches to show for my time here, none of them complete.

I can't wait to get home and start back on my new life. I can't wait to move up north. I can't wait to meet the people I'm going to meet, because I've met some good people down here in Chimbote, too. I find myself noticing all the nice guys, and I think, yes, there are nice guys out there. There are people that I can get along with and I don't have to meet them on the internet. Frankly, I don't trust the emotional health of people who do most of their socializing online. And I only really trust two people I have met online. Which is why, when I started messaging again after certain... events, I got a new alias and didn't transfer over my old list, just gave it to people I know in person.

I should have a point in here pertinent to my art and the website. I guess what it is is that I feel like I am really living life now. I am so priviledged to have been able to travel to exotic places. Hopefully I can still make it to Ireland in January. I am definitely inspired, but here in Peru I have done more writing than drawing. Maybe when I get back home I will have the energy to draw, and I really hope so. I think that my life now is so much richer than it used to be. I was stagnating so badly I can hardly bear to think of what I used to have, and all these things that were kept from me by subtle emotional manipulation. No offense, hon, but it's true.

Soon as I get home I am going to get another website. This isn't running away from my past, as anyone who knows my name can find me online, but I think I want something a little more refined and mature. I don't know if I will keep Pools of Mind up any longer, at least as a domain. If I have another domain I don't think I'll want to pay the registration on two of them. The only reasons I would keep it would be sentimental. I can certainly have an art section labeled "Pools of Mind", but since I am branching out into fiber arts and I will have to have a portfolio online for my Bachelor's degree in Biology, I think a different format would be more appropriate.

Well, my reasons for making this entry are mixed, and I think I am tired of being on the computer, so I am going to cut this off here.